East Grove Blues

I have desided to stop trying any more diets for the moment. They are just not for me. I like food, real food, too much and to give anything up just seems silly to me now. It was a good experience, if anything to get me eating meat again, and so I can’t rail against it. In fact the paleo diet did exactly as promised in many ways. I felt stronger and fitter than ever before, I lost fat and my exercise program improved greatly. The down side was the cost of my mental stability. The diet made me moody and rather depressed. Not because of the food, but the lack of it. I couldn’t eat the things that I love to eat and I had to watch everything that I did eat to make sure it was ’safe’. That stressed me out more often than not and that can make a person more unhealthy than the food.

So here I am, back to square one. Hopefully a little wiser, but more likely not. I have to tack this on to all the other things I have tried and ended up discarding after obsessing about them. The list now stands at: Politics, religion (multiple times), exercise and diet (twice). I have to apologize to all the folks that I preached to about the evils of this and that. If it gets bad again someone has to tell me shut up!

I am blessed to have a family that has been their for me and has done just that several times. They always seem to say the right thing at the right time to shake me out of my stupor. I really do need people to help me come back to reality. Sometimes I start taking the world I create in my head and move it into the world that I am living in. That is not a good thing and leaves me and others hurt. I think I have said it before, but I get lost in my head.

This time I need to be weary of the internet. I tried finding solutions to my problems and ended wandering down a rabbit hole. The hole always had a solution, but it was far away and you kept having to give things up to get there. I feel like I have come out of the maze of roses just in time to head home and begin new things.

There are some positive changes that have occurred because of my little journey. I am no longer exercising like a crazy man for three or four hours a day. I am taking time off and relaxing more. I am eating more meat. When I am eating a balanced meal I don’t feel hungry afterwards. During my trek into vegetarian/vegan land I was always hungry, and paleo world caused the same thing. Now I am eating and when I am done I am full and happy. This also means that I probably eat a bit less and that is ok as well. (That might be wishful thinking though)

The point of this rambling is two fold. Don’t trust any diet with a name and if I am acting stupid I need people to tell me I am stupid.