East Grove Blues

I have been using this website as a sounding board for all that goes on in my head, what I believe at the moment, and a way to express myself without having to send gobs of e-mails to everyone. If you want to read it, you know where to find it. I like that approach to things because it doesn’t bog down people with e-mails they feel that they should read or feel guilty for not reading.

I find it amusing that I say that I hate it when I rant, and yet I feel like that is all I have done. Talking about one subject or another, it all comes back to my wholly uneducated opinion. I have felt rather foolish the last few days really. Mostly because I like to make broad statements about my intentions that I am completely incapable of doing. I know my limits, but I can also be blinded by idea’s.

Honestly I think I have spent too much time bottled up with my own thoughts and those of the internet that I have lost sight on something as simple as my own happiness. The internet can be amazing, but you can find anything to support an idea that you have. That can be gratifying for yourself, but it might not be the best thing for you to do. I have spent to much time worried about health and food that I ended up most likely making myself unhealthy. Much like last year when I spent so much time trying to run more that I made it impossible to run at all by hurting myself.

To keep this from becoming a rambling on all the things that I have done poorly I will try to condense it to one sentence. “I have spent too much time doing and not enough time just being.” Time to myself the last few weekends has really shown me that I need some time for more reflection to keep myself from going down the crazy slippery path that I was heading down. As always though, I’ll just have to see what will happen.